“I can’t do this anymore.”
It’s the second week of school and as aways, I have found myself frozen amidst all the work I have to do. And last night I couldn’t help but stare down at the seven chapters I had to read with an overwhelming sense of dismay. It was 9:00pm and I still had to get up at 6:00am but a paper was due at midnight over the seven chapters I had not even started.
I shut the book. Put my computer down after finalizing a few more author events. And said, “I can’t do this anymore.” I started to lay down to sleep and was ready to turn in the assignment late, fail the quiz that was due at 8am and try again some other time when life was more practical.
But as I said those words of surrender. I knew that I could not just give up. So, I opened the book, read the chapters (okay, I skimmed) and wrote the paper in one hour. But this overwhelming need to freeze up and give up, is a battle I come across every semester.
And I’d like to imagine that I am not alone in this. Talking to a friend last night during our evening course she talked about how she sat on her couch for two hours, just sitting there, because it was just too much.
And I get it.
Sometimes life gets to be too much.
So today, I decided to be your 3:00pm dose of coffee with a little pep talk to get you through the day.
No matter how hard it gets, you can do it. If 5:00pm is your clock out time and every minute is slowly adding up to that freedom, you will get there. You can finish those twenty chapters you were assigned just last night and you can survive a little less sleep in the morning. If the kids keeping screaming your name, bedtime is closer than it appears.
The Gas in your car. The bills on the table. The assignments on your desk. That to-do list in your head. You can get through it.
But that doesn’t mean there isn’t time to get a coffee from Dunkin’ Donuts, schedule a lunch-break with a friend, or go to the gym for the two-hour tot-drop reprieve.
So if today is the day you feel like you are going to break. Don’t. Because today is never the day you can’t keep trying. Today is never the day you can’t push forward. Today is not the day you fall apart.